I haunt my own home

Sunday, January 22, 2006

I went to Harbour Front with M and Samuel on Friday. There I met Frosty. And fell in love with her. (At least I think that its a her)

She was in a glass cage that was broken on top. The pet shop ppl had put some masking tape on the top of the broken part and the min someone walks past her, she'd stand on her hind legs and pop her head out and look at you. Sooooo cute!! I seldom gush like this, but its really adorable. Like a puppy, big eyes and long floppy ears.

Later the sales person came over and talked to us about Frosty. And she kept staring at us, like she knew I wanted to buy her!! Got the kind of why-u-nt-taking-me-home-now kinda look. I wanted to carry her home!! Then she stomp stomp stomp her foot. I cannot take it. Really too cute.

Frosty = $550. Any rich and kind souls out there?

michele | 6:29 AM

Wednesday, January 18, 2006

One fine Saturday, M and I went grocery shopping. We bought so much we cldn't run in e rain. My favourite items are the Basil Leaves and Steakhouse Spice. Yummy. Xingjian came to my house to cook too! We literally cooked up a storm in my kitchen. M and XJ were the professional chefs while I was the kitchen assistant who kept going, eh what is that ah? How to do ah? Eeee... Argh!! I got burned by the oil!! AHhhhh!! Nooooo..

Anyway, the results of our efforts are below.

The food was really good. Steak was done by M, while sphagetti was by Xj and me. Actually I helped marinate the sirloin strips also.. haha... Threw an obscene amt of wine in but it actually turned out great! Oh.. Xj was horrified by my kitchen knives, said it was a shame how I let them become so blunt. Me *scratches head in wonder* kitchen knives must be so sharp for wad, later I drop on my foot how?

We played Scrabble then Hotel after dinner. Xj was very reluctant to play Hotel becuz he apparently had an overdose of it when he was a kid.

We later let lose my hamster in the middle of Le Grand hotels.. haha..

michele | 5:33 AM

Today I attended my first event. It was at the Tower Club at Republic Plaza. Its on the 62nd floor, the view was great. This was my face when I saw the Ladies though.

Check out the toilets.

michele | 5:21 AM

Monday, December 12, 2005

Is it Ok to Backstab Someone After They Backstab You?

I recently found out the horrible hypocrisy of someone I've always defended, at least in my mind, when ppl close to me tell me she's worse than worse.

And I have an issue with being backstabbed. To me, she's a bitch and the worst kind. Just beyond the beyonds. I don't hate her, I despise her.

And I've been deriving an inordinate amt of pleasure from backstabbing her, or maybe frontstabbing, since I don't bother to hide my anger behind a smiling face.

Thats not to say I went and slapped her, I simply ignore her.

But really, the pleasure, the vicious evilness, so delicious to me now, makes me wonder, is it right?

I feel like I've lost something, in knowingly, consciously, backstabbing someone. I've gossipped before naturally, said mean things, but never ever to hurt as consciously as I have done so.

And while I don't feel guilty, certainly I don't think I've paid her back in full, I feel like I've lost a certain innocence. Or as M so aptly put it, I've lowered myself into the muck pit to fight and I've certainly got my hands dirty.

I kinda wish I didn't lose that part of me. But I'm also kinda proud of myself, for paying back what was long owed, and finally defending myself instead of my usual boohoohoo-i've-been-bullied-please-help-me defense system.

So help me God, I'm not turning back. I don't know if I even can.

michele | 10:42 AM

Sunday, December 11, 2005

Pungol? Urband Legend?

Bf: Hey, I read an article in the newspapers that says we can get a flat in Pungol for just $220,000!

Me: Pungol? Where's that?

Bf: Near Sengkang. Its only $792 a month if we take a 30 year loan. And that's with no outlay.

Me:Sengkang? Where's that?

Silence. Bf looks at me with an annoyed expression

Me: Is this some kinda urban legend? Like neverneverland? Cause I have no idea where these places are.

Bf: They're near the pig farms.

Me: Snorts.

Silence
Me: You seriously want us to live near pig farms?

Bf gives up and continues eating.

michele | 1:16 AM

Tuesday, December 06, 2005

Bangkok Trip

Just came back from Bangkok. Never bought anything for myself except 2 Triumph Bras. Everything else is meant to be sold away. And there are TONs and Tons of things. haha.. abercrombie skirts, abercrombie jeans, abercrombie shorts, abercrombie t-shirts, clutch bags, sling bags, tops, earrings.

Will put up the pictures soon.

michele | 10:37 PM

Tuesday, November 22, 2005

I Don't Like People

I love my ipod nano though.

Was talking to YH, talking about how I've finally found undeniable evidence that "the thing" is malicious.

Maybe I'll share the story someday. Not now though. Too disappointing.

I have a great urge to tell her to her face, "I know what you did was on purpose, that you were being malicious. I think you are a bitch."

Call me stupid, but I always thought that very few ppl actually did mean things consciously, purposely. Especially ppl I knew, I always ppl were better when you got to know them.

Still, nmind. I like the friends I already have. I'll just be more careful is all.

michele | 6:52 AM

Friday, November 18, 2005

I've been working the last four days. Every night since my exams have ended.

I've begun to notice disturbing things about myself and the ppl in that environment. Not just the pub/restaurant I work at, probably at most others as well.

Naturally some ppl make real friends there, but mostly, ppl talk and joke and are friendly with each other only because they have no choice. They are stuck in a small space together, in a job tt requires coordination with others, and with a need to keep a close watch on each other to make sure they are on top of the latest shifts in favor and situations.

Always putting on a mask for the boss, the manager, the supervisors, the colleagues. All different masks.

I might be silly, I believe that friends should be made with ppl I truly feel a connection towards. Perhaps connections can be built, made. But I do not believe that anyone can be friends with each other, friendly maybe, but not friends.

And maybe I've seen enough backstabbing to last a lifetime, but I'm sure its not the last time. Sometimes I cannot believe how evil ppl can be to each other. I just can't believe that ppl wld do what they do on purpose, consciously, but I've witnessed it too many times to continue to keep myself in the dark.

michele | 11:34 PM